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Stella
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Licky Thursday, December 17, 2009
I woke up feeling horrible and emotional, so i'm here blogging about miserable stuff with my bunny ipod. Life, lately, has been really tiring and i've been exhausting my brain juices non stop. I'm still so young! Who would have thought that i'd need to think about such complicated stuff? Have you ever experienced the feeling of your life falling apart, like seriously every aspect of it screwed up (and you're not even completely responsible for it, mostly picking up the shit that people left for you)? Like peeling the banana skin little by little but all you're left with is the half rotten flesh. Sigh, everytime after i type so much, i dont feel any better in fact i feel that it's even more pointless since everything is already like that, ranting and whining would just make me sound like a pathetic spoilt brat who can't take hardships/setbacks whatever. I just wish i was more religious i guess, so that i can be more sure of what i'm praying and know that some higher power up there is actually protecting or helping me. On a lighter note, maybe my stupid erratic mood swings/ emotions are due to the lack of normal solid food in my digestive system. I feel like such a baby, going for extractions, eating porridge and mashed up liquid food and salivating uncontrollably. Hahaha i need kfc! Not that i was ever a big fan of kfc but i've been craving for hard crispy chicken!! And the antibiotics makes my tongue taste like plums. It's the holidays but i don't feel the festive spirit at all. No mood for chrostmas, big hangouts no mood for anything. Char's not here too (stupid girl i miss you! Better come back now now now!) and i'm just trying to keep busy and keep my mind off * and food. Shopping is really effective though, retail therapy always works especially with the right company! Had like a major shopping spree with sophia and it was so super rewarding! Now i've really finished my end-of-the-year-shopping-fund that i've been saving for the whole year. And i'm not regretting any buy because they are all super worth it. Okay i really feel sleepy so ciao goodnight! |